Unable to Resist

Bai Lin's words were very calm, restrained, soft, and careful. Chi Qing really hadn't expected her to speak to her like that, a simple sentence: "I like you, I won't leave again." Although it was only a few short words, it shook Chi Qing deeply, leaving her unable to recover her senses for a long time.

How long had it been since she heard someone say they liked her? Chi Qing could no longer remember. It seemed that since Su Aoran died, no one beside her had spoken words of love. In fact, it wasn't that no one had confessed to Chi Qing; on the contrary, those who had feelings for her had never been few.

But those people, like Zeng Kehen, their confessions didn't make her feel anything. No matter how strong and resilient Chi Qing was, she was still a woman. She thought her heart had turned to stone since her lover and family had left one after another, but it actually wasn't.

The human heart is made of flesh; hidden inside the body, it is also the most easily wounded place. Once wounded, it can be healed, but not by medicine or surgery, but by time, letting it slowly close. But this way of healing wasn't enough to make the wound completely whole. Just a slight breeze could make the closed wound rip open again, dripping with fresh blood.

Until now, Su Aoran was still an improper person who rarely spoke words of love. But every time she said them, it was at the right moment, and sincerity could be seen in her eyes. No matter how Su Aoran joked or acted, no matter what she said or did, Chi Qing could feel the love she had for her, very clearly and distinctly.

Being with Su Aoran, Chi Qing felt protected. In her eyes, she wasn't an evil woman, nor did she carry hatred. She was just Chi Qing, the person she loved.

Just now, the moment she heard Bai Lin say she liked her and wouldn't leave, for some reason, Chi Qing couldn't help but let her consciousness and sanity scatter. Simply because Bai Lin was truly serious at that moment. She wasn't like before when she didn't dare to look at her or pay attention to her; instead, she looked straight into her eyes.

Through those dark eyes, Chi Qing saw herself, saw Bai Lin's sincerity. In an instant, those words weren't simple; instead, they weighed a thousand pounds, as if even if the sky collapsed, it wouldn't matter. This gaze was basically not the gaze of a daughter looking at her mother, nor did that tone sound like she was answering her question. In fact, it seemed Bai Lin was taking the opportunity to send her a certain kind of feeling.

Chi Qing looked at the hand still holding hers, looking at Bai Lin who was still staring at her as before, and sighed as she sat on the edge of the bed.

"Bai Lin, what kind of person are you after all? Sometimes, I really don't understand what you're thinking, nor do I know if your words just now were true or false. But if you dare to betray me again, I will absolutely not let you off."

Chi Qing said with a frown, still constantly spitting out heartless words. She didn't want her weakness to be known by anyone, hoping others wouldn't know she felt pain and guilt because of Bai Lin. This was Chi Qing, a person who appeared strong but was extremely weak inside. She used cold words to cover her weak heart, using hurting others as a way to protect herself.

Chi Qing was like a porcupine, surrounded by layers of sharp quills. Hurting others while also making herself lonely. Looking at Chi Qing's eyes filled only with confusion and anxiety, Bai Lin felt an extreme ache in her heart.

She didn't want to see Chi Qing frowning or uncomfortable. Others didn't see or understand, but she knew that although Chi Qing spoke harshly, she clearly wasn't a bad person, only always disguising herself as cold-blooded. If asked what wish Bai Lin had, she only had one.

That was for Chi Qing to live happily, to achieve everything she wanted, and no longer suffer. Even if she would be covered in wounds by Chi Qing, Bai Lin wouldn't be afraid, and would still throw herself into it without regard.

"Mm."

I will never betray you, nor hurt you. Bai Lin didn't know if she would leave Chi Qing, but no matter what she did or how she did it, she would never betray Chi Qing, even if it meant death.

The conversation ended with Bai Lin's simple reply. Looking at her pale face, her body covered in bandages, and those two full, fair breasts—perhaps due to the cold, the sensitive parts had grown hard. Chi Qing only took one look before averting her gaze. For some reason, every time she saw Bai Lin's body, she always felt unnatural. Could a mother feel embarrassed looking at her daughter's body? Or was it because she had looked too little in the past, so she wasn't used to it?

"If there's nothing else, rest. You don't need to wear clothes tonight."

Tucking the blanket back over Bai Lin, Chi Qing spoke in a low voice. At this moment, she felt Bai Lin looked awkward, as if she had something to say, so she instinctively opened her mouth.

"Do you have something else?"

Although they had met again for less than a month, Chi Qing was gradually understanding her habits. The current Bai Lin was even more silent than five years ago. She didn't tell anyone what she wanted to do, nor did she confide in anyone when she was uncomfortable.

Chi Qing remembered once she took Bai Lin on a mission, and Bai Lin's hand was slashed by an enemy. She still stubbornly held on until they returned to the villa, and only when Lu Weilai saw it did she treat it. If she had been a bit slower, the wound could have become infected.

Through this, Chi Qing knew that Bai Lin appeared easy to bully, but her personality was much more stubborn than her own. If not asked, no matter how uncomfortable she was, she wouldn't actively speak of it. Chi Qing was lucky her memory was good enough; otherwise, if she forgot to get food for Bai Lin, this person might have starved to death without saying a word.

"I..."

Bai Lin only spoke one word before stopping. Seeing her avoiding her gaze, her ears flushing red, Chi Qing knew she definitely had something.

"No need to hesitate."

Although she wanted to treat Bai Lin better in her heart, Chi Qing's way of speaking was hard to change. Now that she was anxious, her voice grew even lower.

"Embarrassingly, I need to use the restroom."

Bai Lin spoke these words very softly, her voice barely audible toward the end. Stealing a glance at Chi Qing, Bai Lin bit her lower lip, pointing her hand toward the bathroom. Only now did Chi Qing understand what she wanted.

"I'll go ask the doctor."

With a brief sentence, Chi Qing turned and went out. Looking at her tall, slender figure, Bai Lin gently rubbed her chest, her heart seemingly beating very fast.

*****

"The doctor said you can't get out of bed right now, you can only use this."

Not long after, Chi Qing returned. Seeing the plastic bag in her hand, a trace of embarrassment appeared on Bai Lin's face. Very clearly, she didn't want to use this method. Doing this in front of Chi Qing was truly too embarrassing.

"Is there no other way? I can get out of bed, you just need to support me a bit," Bai Lin asked hurriedly, carrying a sliver of hope. She used both hands to support her body, wanting to sit up, but before she could leave the bed, she was firmly pressed back down by Chi Qing, unable to move.

"If you want to become disabled, keep pushing yourself."

Looking at Bai Lin's actions, Chi Qing said in displeasure. Although she didn't want to help Bai Lin handle this kind of situation, thinking of Bai Lin's body being seen by anyone other than herself made Chi Qing very irritated, especially her private parts.

"Otherwise, call a nurse here," Bai Lin said after hesitating for a long time, having a mental struggle. Although she didn't want her body seen by a nurse, compared to letting Chi Qing do this kind of thing, she would rather sacrifice herself than have Chi Qing suffer any grievance.

"It's so late, the nurses have already gone home."

Chi Qing said, and without waiting for Bai Lin to speak, lifted her blanket once again. Seeing her body exposed, Bai Lin felt not only embarrassed but also a bit unwilling. If possible, she wanted to handle this herself. But her current body, except for eating and drinking, could do nothing.

This situation made Bai Lin feel depressed, and what was about to happen made her extremely embarrassed.

"I'll help you take off your pants, don't move."

Looking at Bai Lin's embarrassed and flustered appearance, Chi Qing's expression was also a bit unusual.

She didn't understand why she had lied that the nurses had gone home, and even wanted to do this kind of thing for Bai Lin herself. Chi Qing had mysophobia; this was something everyone who knew her understood clearly. Normally, no matter how disheveled she was when executing a mission, she wanted to maintain basic hygiene.

Her clothes were rarely stained, and items stained with blood were never used a second time. The sheets had to be changed every day, and some daily necessities were always replaced frequently. Except in special situations, regardless of spring, summer, autumn, or winter, she had to bathe three times a day.

In the past, let alone doing this for Bai Lin, even staying in the hospital for a few hours was something she wouldn't agree to. But now, she actively sought ways to take care of Bai Lin. Chi Qing didn't know if this change was due to her own inner consciousness, or if Bai Lin's actions had moved her.

But regardless, Chi Qing didn't feel averse to this kind of change, even feeling a bit of joy.

Because her left leg was injured, the movement of removing her pants also became more careful. Bai Lin had a very small waist, and the hospital pants she wore were baggy, easily removed with a gentle pull. Looking at the white underwear exposed, a wondrous feeling arose from the depths of Chi Qing's heart.

This underwear was chosen by herself, then she had her bodyguards buy it. Chi Qing had never thought she would have a day when she helped Bai Lin remove her underwear. However, this feeling only lasted for a few seconds before being dismissed by Chi Qing. She thought that many mothers did this for their children, didn't they?

"I'm sorry."

While Chi Qing was lost in thought, Bai Lin's voice echoed. Hearing this apology, and catching a glimpse of Bai Lin's slightly flushed face, along with her ears which were so red they seemed about to bleed, Chi Qing didn't reply, but only lowered her head to remove Bai Lin's long pants. Neither of them noticed that just as Chi Qing lowered her head, her lips unconsciously curved into a smile. Although fleeting, there was no denying that Chi Qing was in a very good mood.

The right pant leg was easily removed, and the left leg was also carefully completed by Chi Qing. Placing the pants on the sofa, Chi Qing looked at Bai Lin lying on the bed, wearing only her underwear, her body almost completely exposed.

At this moment, Bai Lin's body was almost entirely white. White skin, white bandages, and white sheets. Although the room light was very dim, Chi Qing could still clearly see Bai Lin's expression. Chi Qing felt that Bai Lin was like a faint light; with just a slight cover, she would vanish without a trace.

With her body uncovered and the air conditioner on in the room, the temperature difference made Bai Lin involuntarily shiver. Seeing her reaction, Chi Qing stopped dazing off, kneeling on the bed with her back leg supporting her body, leaning down to place her hand on the waistband of Bai Lin's underwear.

Chi Qing's hand slid down along with the underwear, her soft fingers brushing against her thighs, bringing waves of gentle, tingling itchiness. Bai Lin looked at Chi Qing leaning down between her legs, slowly closing her eyes.

Qing, if you keep going, I won't be able to resist.